A Peachtree Recap

Nope, I did not trek to Atlanta, I did not run the Peachtree 10K with thousands of others. I pretty much swore off races with thousands of others after my second Rock n Roll Marathon in San Diego.

These folks, however, were there.

Lauren Fleshman, "In the Mini I raced scared. I let the top pack go right away, and hid in the safety of splits I felt confident I could hit without dying." II think everybody has had those types of moments. She fixed her problem with a major assist from Davila Linden. Read the article to see how a champion responds to adversity - and how a champion makes those around her better.

What, you thought you were the only one who suffered from indecision? Elite runner Tyler Pennel puts words to page and discussed ditching his plan midway through the race. Read to the end where he talks about the advice he got from a sports psychologist. Then ponder what it might mean for you.

And a report from a mere mortal (if you consider a guy that can knock out the Ulmstead 100 miler) who has a case of nerves at the start. Doubts or not, Brian put it on the line, then shared. Great report.

Enough. Run gently, friends.

More Important than a Relay? Grandbabies . . .

I've run about three of the Spokane to Sandpoint relays. It's been a hoot each time, thanks to a great bunch of teammates. We went by the team name of Velocity Deficit Disorder. While most of us were in the pokey, we're-here-to-have-fun group, a couple of the folks on the team could zip off some pretty quick miles to compensate. We were at least semi-competitive.

I'm missing this year, despite the fact that I'm finally getting back up to speed. I usually have a spot on the team because, at 3AM, I can still calculate the splits accurately. We're old-school and still do it on pen-and-paper. Pencil, actually. At 3AM, goofs can happen.

S2S 2011 Velocity Deficit Disorder Team

Like the exchange at a school in the middle of the night. - The teenager who was taking the next leg from me woke up about the time I hit the exchange point, flew out of the van shedding gear, grabbed the wristband, and promptly exited the parking lot - and into the woods because he was headed in completely the wrong direction 'out' of the parking lot. He did better after we got him turned around and made sure he was completely awake.

Anyhow, I won't be there this year, though I might show up for the start if there's some high school teams running. I'd love to interview them. Scott, the race director, said he'll keep me posted.

I can't commit to the whole thing, though. I have a pair of daughters, both former teammates (and hopefully again) who are both pregnant and both due in the same week. On the same day, actually.

It's bad form for the grandpa to abandon the daughters when they go into labor. We don't do much more than fetch coffee and pace hallways but we're supposed to be there. And given a choice between the two, my daughters, the new grandson, granddaughter win hands down.

I'll throw up a blog post on race day, night, day, and have the comments open. I'm not sure anybody's ever tried to live blog a relay. Might be fun to try.

It's Tuesday, in July, and it's hot.

What, you thought there might be actual content here today?

Fine. Cutting a check for the Lewis Clark Animal Shelter for their share of the sales of A Walk with Rose. Actually, cutting a bigger check. The shelter can use the funds and the story hasn't sold as well as I hoped. Slightly bummed about that.

More. Okay, How about the US Mountain Running Championships in Lincoln, New Hampshire over the weekend? The race was the Loon Mountain Race, rated by Runners World as one of the toughest in the country with an insane 2200' of climb in 5.5 miles. Friends and former running buddies Ashley and Ross Krause took the line as members of their respective teams. Ashley runs with the ladies on Western Mass Distance Project while Ross is part of the Central Mass Striders. Both teams took first place in the Overall Divisions. Very pleased for my friends. BTW, here's the USATF page for the race. Fortunately, others actually thought people would like to know how things turned out. Here's some links that have news about the athletes. Here, here, and results. A nice blog post with photos is here.

The local running club, the Seaport Striders, are putting on a race on August 8th in Asotin. It's the Striders Benefit Run, and the proceeds get divvied up between the participating local schools - Asotin, Clarkson, and Lewiston. When? Friday, August 8 @ 7 p.m.  Here's the entry form.

If you're running with your dog, it's supposed to be hitting triple digits most of this week and next. Here's a post I wrote about keeping your best friend safe.

Don't forget to keep yourselves safe out there.

A post that didn't go in the direction I planned . . .

It's always a shock to my system when I meet someone who doesn't have goals, the folks just drifting along with events, bouncing with the prevailing currents. I don't understand it because my hardwiring is different. Very different. Plus, I hang with folks that want to accomplish things, large and small.

I'm a huge fan of goals. However, I operate a little differently than the majority of the population, including those that are goal-setters.

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I have a son-in-law, very goal-oriented (as is my daughter that he is married to.) Both of are planners, identifying their goals, laying down the path to the goal, often writing it down on paper to make sure all the steps are clear. Then, they pick up the first task and begin a march to the goal.

Which makes it sound easier than it is, but you get the idea of their general process. It's the one that most of the books you can order on Amazon will recommend, that teachers teach, that gurus advocate.

That's not my process. What they do, we call "Ready, Aim, Fire!"

My process is to identify my goal, like writing a book. Then I start. No plan, just an idea worth doing. Launch, and figure it out as I go.

Ready, FIRE!, Aim

It's the difference between an arrow, released to a target, and a self-correcting guided missile.

There are advantages to both approaches. The arrow already knows the target, the course, all the factors. The odds of hitting the target are good, and, the better your planning, the more likely you are to achieve the goal. There is the comfort of certainty in the process. Surprises can still happen but the planning stages will remove most of those.

The guided missile knows where it wants to end up but everything in between is in flux. A thousand possible paths exist and some will lead to dead ends. Others will lead to serendipitous points that enhance the journey. The very nature of the journey will be unpredictable and it's not for the fainthearted.

The guided missile has another advantage.

It can aim for the stars. There isn't any in between reasoning to explain why the goal is unreasonable or impossible. Truly transformational goals build off dreams, get their power from the passion that you invest.

Not everybody will understand the passion. Some will actively work against you and tell you the goal is unattainable.

Actually, they do this to the planners as well. My daughter, the planner, is studying electrical engineering. She's also raising a family, one daughter here, a son on the way. She's had classmates, especially the women, tell her she'll never complete the program because of the kids.

I laugh because they obviously misunderstand my kid. She's a stubborn one, and determined. She'll take in the insults - and that's what they are - and use them for motivation. In the meantime, she has a husband who's wonderfully supportive.

All three of my girls are like this. My wife and I joke that we doubled up on the stubborn gene but we also taught them to aim for the stars - and that they got to pick those stars. Yamaha motorcycles once ran an ad campaign targeting Honda, whose tagline was "Follow the Leader!" The Yamaha response, "At Yamaha, we don't believe you need to follow anybody!" and showed a bike kicking up dust across the open desert.

Whether you're a "Ready, Aim, Fire" person or a "Ready, Fire, Aim" sort like me, you have the right to define your own goals, your dreams. You also get to the right to define the path to them. Never surrender those, ever.


And, now a confession.

The picture I have embedded in this post doesn't match the content. That's because, in guided missile fashion, I originally aimed at something different, an explanation for why I needed a return to the Seven Devils to run the loop trail, all 30 miles of it, this year.

A serendipitous diversion on the way to that post. I'll put it up later this week.

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Thank you, Bruce Brown!

I saw a few minutes ago that Coach Bruce Brown of Proactive Coaching said very nice things about my book, Finishing Kick.

To say that I was nervous sending a copy to him would be an understatement but if you want to excel, you need to put in the work, step to the plate, and take your best swing. Nobody promises that this will be comfortable but, as any parent with kid sprouting knows, growth can be positively uncomfortable. It's also necessary.

For all of you that are visiting, thank you for taking the time to read my blog. If you have comments, feel free to leave them in the posts. I also have a contact page. I'm a one-person operation so I get to read everything.

It's been pretty easy because everyone has been so darned nice. Thank you.

And a huge thank you to Coach Brown. The coach is simply amazing and could not have been nicer when a little known writer suggested that Finishing Kick might fit in with his high standards.

Thank you all, more than you'll ever realize.

Paul Duffau

The Lonesome Mile, Chapter One

With my previous books, I put out the first chapter (in very rough form - you get to see all my typos and cruddy sentences before the polish goes on and editor extraordinaire, Christina McDonald, fixes my more egregious error.)

I'm going to modify that this time. Chapter Two of The Lonesome Mile will actually introduce the main character, miler Nick Capelletti of Colorado Springs. In Chapter One, we meet the kids of Cripple Creek that will be in the story. They're kids on the brink, that need just a little help and compassion to get them headed in the right direction.

The Lonesome Mile, Chapter One

Chapter 1

The two boys shifted furtively in the late twilight until they were positioned at the edge of the vacant lot that faced Bennett Avenue. Jordan carried the sky rocket – a Saturn V Heavy Lifter, completely illegal in Colorado. Danny had the lighter.

“Better aim it a little down the street,” whispered Danny, as Jordan scouted for broken bricks to brace the firework.

The wind surged and pulled at them as it swept past the casinos that lined the only busy street in Cripple Creek. Bennett Avenue was divided into a westbound upper level and an eastbound lower street with a metal staircase and railings for pedestrians to cross the street. The west end of the road glittered with gambling houses, the light reflecting out onto the empty sidewalks.

In the summer, the town would be packed with gray-haired and overweight tourists, laying down money, drinking cheap tap beer, and hoping to get lucky.

On April Fool’s Day, Cripple Creek was a ghost town with slot machines.

Across from the dark face of City Hall, Jordan stacked the bricks, forming a vee-shaped launching pad for the rocket. He angled it westward, into the icy gusts. He picked up the Saturn V and placed it into the structure, adjusting it when the barrel of the explosive rolled, pointing at the decrepit vacant building next to the lot. Finally, he had it balanced on the wood stick.

Jordan glanced at the staircase that dropped from the back of the lot. Danny had designed their escape route. Once the rocket fired off, they were sprinting for the staircase, dodging down between the parking garage that the Gold Creek Casino used for overflow and the museum dedicated to the adult entertainments of the original gold rush when the Cripple Creek Mining District was the most productive gold producer in the country. Tours of the old bordello cost five bucks.

Another gust of wind, brittle with cold, hit Jordan through his heavy jacket and he jammed his fingers deep into the pockets. He stood.

The rocket rolled again.

“Come on, dude, get that thing set,” said Danny, slouching in the shadows and scanning up and down the street to see if anybody noticed them. No one did, ever. The kids were mostly invisible unless they tried to get into a casino. Danny had managed sneaking in a couple of times. Each time, the security guard warned him off but none had turned him in to the real cops though they blustered and threatened.

“I’m trying, but the wind keeps moving it.”

Jordan fumbled with the firework, trying to get it perfectly seated into the notch but the rough surfaces of the deteriorated brick sloped unevenly. Each gust of wind caused small movements in the lightweight projectile.

Jordan was regretting showing Danny the leftover fireworks. And listening to Danny when he slipped into crazy mode.

Let’s slide downtown, set up the Saturn, and—boom!—add a little fun to the night.

The goal was to get it airborne and bursting over downtown. Sitting in Jordan’s house, alone because his mom was tending bar, it sounded easy.

The damn thing rolled again and Jordan reached to put it back when Danny knocked him out of the way. Danny had the lighter in his hand, ready.

“Wait, man,” said Jordan, reaching to get the alignment right. His arms tangled with Danny’s and the sudden flare of the lighter flame blinded him. Sparks ignited as the flame found the fuse, not at the end but just under the base of the rocket. Jordan felt his hand bump it, the heat from the fuse washing over the back of his hand, and the sky rocket rolled, the wood stick slipping.

Whoosh!

In the acrid smell of the expended propellant, Jordan watched, horrified, as the Saturn V blasted off almost horizontally to the ground right at the City Hall. An instant later, a loud clang rang out on the street as it hit the railing for the pedestrian crossing and arced down the street, trailing fire from the exhaust.

Wide-eyed, Jordan lurched forward, thrusting his head around the corner, as the projectile completed its aborted effort at flight. It skipped off the street twice, throwing sparks, before it hit the curb on his side of the road. The ricochet lifted it enough to clear the divider, on a collision course with the plate glass windows of Bronco Billy’s.

The explosion, directly in front of Bronco Billy’s, blew out half the lights over the entrance and reverberated between the old buildings on either side, stunningly loud in the quiescent town.

Laughter behind him shook him from the paralysis that locked up his chest. He turned in time to see Danny scrambling for the stairway. With a jerk, Jordan fled after him.

His foot caught a rock and he stumbled and almost fell. Recovering, he looked up to see fleet-footed Danny dodge down the steps, his dark clothes merging with his shadow as he flitted away. He cursed under his breath. Of course Danny wouldn’t wait up.

The pressure on Jordan’s chest grew worse as he tripped over another unseen obstacle in the dark. The buildings reared up around him, surrounding the open lot as he hit the ground hard. His breath coming in gasps, he got up, ignoring the pain in his knee. He started limping to the stairs, just a few yards away and the pain faded.

He reached the top of the stairs in time to see Danny descend into the gulley on the far side of Myers Avenue. Jordan knew he’d head for the rubble ruin of an old house and hide out there. Anywhere else would be too exposed. Around him, he could hear sounds of the town stirring, checking on the commotion.

Jordan leaned on the metal handrail, feet gliding down the concrete steps as they barely caressed the tread before moving on to the next. His knee, the sore one, buckled a bit when he reached the landing, but he accelerated toward the street and dark open spaces where he could hide until things chilled.

In five strides, Jordan was up to his top speed, legs chugging as fast as he could make them go. His footsteps echoed off the burnt red brick wall of the garage on his left and his gasping breath sounded huge in his ears.

He was nearly at the street when a shadow exploded from the last doorway of the garage and slammed into his shoulder. Jordan felt his feet leave the ground and, almost instantaneously, tasted the chalky dust as he slammed into the ground, stunned. The weight of a rent-a-cop pinned him down.

“Gotcha, ya little punk!”

In the distance, Jordan thought he could hear Danny laughing and the bottom dropped out of his stomach. He blinked furiously and clamped his jaw tight and thought of his mother.


Katie was ignoring Poppa Pete.

She sat at the dinette that filled the breakfast nook of her grandfather’s little A-framed house. The dinner dishes sat at the other end. One her chores that she hadn’t done today, to scrape the scraps of into the dog bowl and wash them. The dog, Rick, a black lab, lay across her feet, waiting lazily for a pork chop bone. Her grandfather was sitting in his chair, a battered old brown leather thing, pretending to read a book under a dim lamp. She could feel the weight of his gaze.

Katie looked down at her algebra book and sighed. It was gibberish, a and b and x and the quadratic equation to figure out something she didn’t care about in the first place. She turned up her music and closed her eyes as sound flooded into her brain via the two white earbuds. Her head started move, then her shoulders, until her entire upper body swayed.

Better.

She knew she should say sorry and make nice. Promise it wouldn’t happen again, except she’d promised that the last time, too. Poppa Pete would be disappointed and firm, telling her she couldn’t just wallop a kid just because they were laughing at her, at her mom, wanted to know if she knew where they could score some weed. Oh, that’s right, your mom’s a methhead, never mind.

But she had. Again. Hit him as she could but Danny dodged and just laughed at her when the teacher grabbed her before she could tackle him, shut his smartass mouth.

This time the school called the cops, who called Child Welfare, who called Poppa.

Unacceptable behavior, Mr. Archer. Katie isn’t allow to attack other students, we understand she’s in a difficult position until her mom gets out of jail, but you assured us that you would be able to keep Katie out of trouble until her mother returns.

Katie unclenched her hands as tears burned behind her closed eyelids. Four months. Mom would be back in four months. Clean because there were no drugs in prison. Katie’s mom promised, every time that Katie made the trip up to the Denver Women’s Correctional Facility. Her mom said she was in the 12-step, that it would be different this time, baby girl.

Katie wanted to believe her, so much that it made her hurt.

She felt Poppa’s hands on her bony shoulders. She hadn’t heard him move over the music. Wordlessly, his powerful miner’s hand gently worked into the tissue, thumbs pressing gently along her neck. A shudder went through her as she thought about how she let him down. He’d never condemn her and that was worse than if he yelled.

Like the granite of the Front Range, he was the only solid foundation she had in her life and she wanted desperately to make him happy, to make up for her mom. He’d stepped into the void to be a surrogate dad and he never once lied to her. He spoke in a gruff voice when he spoke at all, but if he said that he was doing something, it got done.

She felt a squeeze from the hands and a pat on her shoulder as they stopped the rhythmic motion. She opened her eyes and saw him limp across the room, headed for bed. He stopped and made eye contact. He made a motion like removing the ear pieces.

Katie pulled the right earbud.

“You’ve got dishes?”

She nodded and lifted her hand up to reinsert the music.

“Good girl.” He began to turn, stopped and turned back.

Katie’s hand ceased its upward motion.

He stood there for a moment as though he wanted to add more and his eyes were filled with sympathy.

“I believe in you, kid. You know that?”

Independence Day

Happy Fourth of July. It's one of the three holidays every year that I take off in celebration. See you tomorrow.

Personally, I Blame Testosterone

I only got as far at the headline at Runner's World, but it didn't seem like this was a tough question. Why Are Men So Bad at Marathon Pacing? I've always joked I run like a girl. Works.

“It’s really fun, and it’s the best job in the world,” said Jordan Hasay. Loved watching her compete at the Trials in Eugene a couple of years ago.

 

Gotta go run. I'll add another post later today with some new articles that are fun.

 

 

 

Book Marketing and an Essential Life Skill

I am beginning to think that I have exactly one major life skill that I keep applying to every situation. I didn't recognize it as a skill, though, until I started running (modern era - high school didn't count as I was a discus thrower forced to run.)

That skill I affectionately call "being too dumb to quit."

I started at marathons and they hurt enough that I decided to up the ante. The result was 65.61 miles of fun on the track in San Mateo, California, which was good enough to earn me an age group winner plaque. My first hardware running.

It works in running, in working, and, with a little luck tossed in, book marketing.

The one thing that I keep hearing over and over is that there is no surefire plan to sell a book. You have to find what works with you, the writer, and with your particular novel.

For an independent publisher, even one that gets recognized by a major magazine in the genre (Is running a genre?), marketing gets interesting because funds are so limited. Major publishers can send authors out on tour, get them a publicist, or favorable reviews.

Me, I get to be creative.

So far, I've sent the book out to a total of three people, one who said she wouldn't have time to read it because she had a newborn. I like her writing though, so I sent a copy anyway. In twelve years, when she gets past the sleep-deprived stage, maybe she'll get to it.

I've actually given away more copies to kids that might like it. I know, lousy business tactics, sharing willy-nilly without a thought to the bottom line.

I'll probably send it to more, no obligation on the reviewers part and no promises.

Book signings? Got some ideas there, too. I can think of a couple of fun ways to approach that, ways that put me in contact with runners/readers.

And, of course, there is my 'sure-to-lose-money' website idea to chronicle high school cross country around here at my InlandXC.com blog. (It's quiet over there now. I'll kick back into gear in August and things here will slow a touch.)

I have some runner/writers that I want to chat with like Tim Tays. If you haven't read his book, Wannabe Distance God, I recommend it.

Will it translate into sales? Heck, I don't know.

I do know it will be fun, I'll learn a lot in the process, and besides, good things keep happening because I'm too dumb to quit.

Rock 'n Roll - The Women Lead

Northwest Runner magazine links to an interesting article on the Rock 'n Roll half and full marathon in Seattle. A full 62 percent of the participants are women. Big change from the early years.

Go read the article. Personally, I think the more, the merrier. Not sure that the hyper-competitive would agree. . .

Yep, I Check - Monday Morning

The weather is warm, the sun is bright - and it's still a Monday morning.

Feeling sluggish and don't wanna go to work! Going anyway because that's what big boys do.

Side note: Yesterday's 'run' included a bushwhack across Moscow Mountain. At one point, we were climbing 1200 per mile. Hang on to the nearest bush kind of steep. Totally fun.

Long Runs, Training Plans, and Happy Meanders

I have a confession to make - I don't have a training plan.

These days, everybody has a training plan. Google 5K training plan and you'll get 'about 3.870,000 results.'  Add in 10K, half-marathon, marathon, beginner, expert, introductory trailrunning, and all the other options you have for running and I bet the number of plans could go over 10 million.

Or you can design your own plan. Jack Daniels in his Daniels Running Formula gives you all the tools to use, how to use them and, yes, includes sample plans. I used that back when I was building plans, aiming to qualify for Boston. When I ran ultras, I followed plans, modified a bit to incorporate Daniels (and everybody else's advice) regarding the specificity of training for a particular event. (Thou shalt not run short repeats on a track four times a week - no matter how studly thou looks - if training for a trail ultrarun!)

Weekends are usually reserved for long runs but I've always cheated, at least a little bit. The training plan might be "Long run, 8:30 pace, 23 miles, on Chipman Trail to Pullman and back on Old Moscow Highway." but I would change course and often speed. Sometimes I'd wimp out on the mileage, but not often. I was just as likely to tack on another mile or so, looking for the point where I crashed. Or as my friend Colin puts it, when it turns into real work.

A fair number of our long runs, back when I ran with a group, were only lightly scheduled. The start time was a little iffy. My wife would crew the long runs, stopping every couple of miles to hand out water bottles, Gatorade, and encouragement. She also kept track of the back of our small pack and provided pick-up services for those that got a little tuckered - pick-up included dogs that were pooped.

Breakfast followed, once complete with mimosas. Very nice long run day. Very unproductive after the run and the mimosas, though, so we skip that part and focus on food.

And every once in a while, we'd skip the whole planned long run idea. This was usual at my instigation when I got bored with all our usual routes. Instead, we'd just launch, giving my wife directions to the next intersection so she could find us. We might take turns calling out the next side street to duck down, or an alleyway. If the dogwoods were blossoming, we'd head up to Normal Hill in Lewiston, slide down through Pioneer Park, and drop down to the levy.

We didn't know where we were going, didn't care. We called it a meander. My kids called it going out to play. We might log two or three hours of running but, without mile markers or GPS watches, we didn't know how far we went.

The older I get, the more I appreciate the power of those meanders.

So today, I'm doing a long run. I'm meeting Colin and we're heading up to Four Corners on Moscow Mountain. From there, we'll launch and the idea is to run for about an hour and a half since he did a hard tempo run yesterday (Colin still uses plans and his is to qualify again for Boston after a few years of dialing back his running to handle life.) We have no idea which trails we're going to run, uphill or down, to the cedar grove or past the cabin.

We're just out for a happy meander. Colin calls it running, I call it playing, and we're both right.

Gotta go get my trail shoes now. Dirt awaits, and maybe a bear or a moose. Might get a chance to incorporate a hard interval, unplanned of course, into our day.

Run gently and have some fun out there.

Sign Me Up!

I had someone ask recently if I would be interested in talking to a local high school creative writing class if they could arrange it.

Duh. I love to talk, especially about stuff that I find hugely interesting. Mostly that's running, writing, grandkids, and all the weird things I find in creepy crawlspaces.

So, if you would like a guest speaker who will show up for the right price - free! - to talk to your team or your class, use the contact page and we'll see what we can do to arrange it.

More Dad than Ferocious Competitor

I've run enough races that individual finishes don't stick as permanent life changing memories.

Some do.

In 2002, two years after I started running, I did a 5k. I don't recall the name of it, or even the time of year though I suspect the fall as there was a Santa Ana blowing and the humidity was at about six percent. It also had a downhill start. That combination of wind at my back and gravity got me out to a fast (for me) 6:25 first mile.

The real speedsters were well out in front and most of my running buddies from the San Diego Track Club were jumping into the half that was going off right after we were done. Instead, I ran with a bunch of unfamiliar folks - and a group of kids, ranging in age from about 8 to 13, part of the San Diego Road Runners club. They came decked out in fancy sweats and serious attitudes. A goodly number of those little boys and girls ended up ahead of me.

After cooking off the line and feeling very good in the first mile, I regained a little sanity and brought my middle mile into a nice, sustaining recovery mile. One by one, I was moving up and picking off runners that were more foolish than I was at the start. I didn't push hard because I was getting ready for the last mile.

It was a loop course which meant powering back up the hill, this time into the wind. Uggh. Still, it was an opportunity to prove to myself I could push through and finish strong, so I buckled down and did what I do well. Grind. And picked up more roadkills on the way up the hill.

The top flattened out for the last 75 yards or so and I went into a kick. Passed on person, then a second and saw the last person between me and the finish.

I think she was about nine, cute as could be, skinny like my little girls and a long, blond ponytail. She was clearly struggling and I was closing fast.

Twenty yards from the arch at the finish, I caught up to her. I saw her shoulders drop a little as she heard me coming.

 I love to compete, at nearly everything. I hate losing. I cover it well, much better than when I was younger, but I really, really hate losing whether it's a race, a game of monopoly, or who makes the best over-easy eggs in the family.

That day, though, I slowed down behind her and started telling her, "Come on, go, go, go, you got it." She sprinted and I cheered her all the way into the chute.

That's a memory, a lesson learned on the run, that I treasure. That's the day I discovered that I was more Dad than big ferocious competitor.